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Wow, so much has changed.

I'm now living life as a divorce`. Totally weird. Having grown up as a married girl, life is much different being alone.
While there are many many negatives to this situation, there are many positives as well. I'm allowed to change my mind without fear of disappointing anyone. I am able to sleep and eat bathe on my own schedule..not stressing or living life around someone elses.
I always think i'm ready to type out a blog...and i'm not. I lose everything I am about to say and...fuck it.

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First & Second
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That's the thing about blogs...

When you have a myspace, you forget about 'em!

You'd think there's a lot to say when I haven't posted for this long...
Maybe.

My husband is gone until Tuesday. I'm awkwardly alone. Luckily I have some awesome kids to hang out with tonight. We're gonna go see My Bloody Valentine in 3D....STOKED. I never go to the movies anymore. Too pricey I guess. Not that I live the humblest life...but I try to be frugal as much as possible. Ugh.

Whiskey has given me really bad heartburn..but beer makes me fat(ter)...so whadya gonna do! Not drink? Crazy idea.

Tomorrow I'm going to stay at my Dad and his wife's house so I have something to do. Maybe he will tattoo me. Speaking of which, I'm gonna get Travis' name behind my ear while he's gone :) I already have his name on my arm, but he did that one....so I'm gonna have his boss do the new one.

I painted something for my Dad's birthday this month and it turned out surprisingly well. It's like..trees and sunset...but sweet colors like teal and pink and black/greenish. He liked it.

babble babble. Have a good one.

sari

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Relentless
By Pentagram
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Happy weekend

So, I'm bummed I didn't get to see my sister before she and her family moved. They went to Chicago..which is where her husband is from. Their baby Sean, I know has gotten so big. I hope he remembers my husband and I when we get a chance to visit.

My 4th of July was alright. Got to spend some time with my Dad working on a website. Travis made chili and cornbread and I drank a lot of wine, hah. The dog was beyond freaked out by the fireworks, allll day.

I'm glad it's the weekend..but I don't really know why. Growing up, Saturday mornings were always the best. Cartoons...cereal..lazing around and being a kid. Not really how it is anymore. Too be expected though. Married life is totally different.

Anyway.. I hope your weekend is going well. Happy 4th!

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SGNL>05
By Isis
Divine Mother
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It's so hot!

I know it's hotter in other places though..so I can't complain too much. In my area of Portland, it's about 92 already. It's 10:30 am. My coffee is not so enjoyable!

A trip to the river will be much appreciated, hopefully for the 4th of July.

My childhood in Oregon was enveloped by the outdoors...and I'm excited to get back into that. Both of my vehicles were sold before I moved here, because the transportation system is so amazing, but that limits me to staying within the city for now. When I have a better mode of transportation I will be camping up a storm.

Hope all is well with you.

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Sourvein
Witch Rides Out
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Portland has been lifechanging, but..

Maybe not in the best of ways. I love Oregon and I love life here, but being in Downtown Portland often doesn't give my spirit rest. I moved here in hopes of slowing down, settling and getting on track. Comparatively, I have been living a completely different lifestyle since the move. I think I'm ready for my spirit to be on a better, more refined path. Church has actually entered my mind a lot lately.

I'd love to spend some time in Canby, jeez.

Beyond the complaints, I love my life. I appreciate everything I have.

there's lots of cool different stuff in this playlist...check it out, even if you're scared of it.

My family, they are my number one priority. And family extends way beyond blood, to me. Tattoos, Oregon, metal, travel (which I hope to do much more of), learning all the time, trying to live healthfully (but I usually drink too much beer), music, communication, culture, structure, dreaming, self-therapy, different smells and tastes, remembering my younger years, getting older and happier everyday, self-improvement, the non-judgmental, open-mindedness, slsk (because music is for sharing), Mortal Kombat, my super cool Slayer deck that I never skate on, trying to balance my attitude, being brutally dorky, not limiting myself by rules or guidelines, strong friendships, forgiveness, willingness to learn, leading as best a life I can while along the way messing up a tonnn.